How to Pick?

Gramps entered to Mia's room up in the ICU, he was crying, and not the loud cry, but just tears falling out of his eyes. He told Mia how everyone's hopping she stays with them, but if she wanted to go she had to. That if she wanted to go with Teddy and her parents she could. this left Mia at peace, knowing that someone understood what she was going through. But then she saw Adam, apart of wanting to see him she had a worry, that he would disrupt the peace Gramps left her. Adam only could think that it was his fault , he thought the vassal rupture was his effect because before he went to see her she was fine. the only words he says was "Please, please, please, please." Please don't die, please don't leave me, please. 

Mia has many questions about how things are going to work out, there is one thought that made me think. She says "I wonder if every dying person gets to decide whether they stay or go. It seems unlikely. After all,this hospital if full of people having poisonous chemicals pumped into their veins or submitted to horrible operations, all so they can stay, but some of them will die anyway,"(Forman, 180).  If she is right, if we get to choose how come many young people die? Is it because they chose to? Or is it just science? And if anyone has the chance to pick either living or dying, they should always pick living because there are many people that don't have that chance even though they want to, and if you just want to die, you should live for them.

"Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you." 192
Since we are little kids parents tell us that every choice we take and every decision we make have a consequence, either bad or good depending on what you did. But they never tell you about the choices life makes, like for example who comes and goes from our life's. Meeting someone can be destiny, making friends with them is a choice, but we didn't decide to meet them, it just happen. Like meeting Adam wasn't Mia's choice, he came to her, getting to know Adam was Mia's choice, and falling for him and him falling for her was neither of their choices, just faith.

A Mozart's Requiem

     Mia keeps struggling with either "staying" in this state or moving on and has a life with Adam. One of the problems is that she doesn't know how to wake up or simply die. She is already giving up, and realizes why at this point living is harder than dying.  One of her incentives is already gone, Teddy died, she knows it, her little brother is dead. Mia and Teddy have a ten-year age difference, making Teddy 7 when he died. Mia said that he was the one that had to live or at least have the chance to do so. But as well as she means, probably Teddy needs to be with his parents much more, cause ha cannot take care of himself, Mia can.

"Amazing things happen when you stop hiding behind that hulking beast."138
This part of the dialogue Mia has with one of her camp friends was touchy, not only because I as well play the cello but because it is true that when someone takes their mask off sometimes there has been someone beautiful hiding behind. This is one of the most important lessons of life because life is all about discovering yourself, and they say you never finish learning who you are, but many people hide what they are. I don't know why is that because, Why hide something beautiful? In my believe this is part of what must be tough to the early generations, respect, not only to the elderly or to the planet (which is also very important), but to themselves. Teach them that if they don't respect themselves there is nobody that will respect them back!


"I'd want a Mozart's Requiem" 172
To better explain why this quote had a big impact on me I have to tell bit a story, I play the cello and my teacher once told us about this composition, she sang it at school (in Latin as well) but with so many practices she became depressed and some kind of enchanted, she drew this dark things, etc. The point is that I was taunted with this story, and when I read this book I started to read about this composition. The story is basically how he started writing this Requiem, a Requiem is a mass for the death. Mozart started writing it but he never actually finished, yet he died before he could. One of his appendices finished it for him. Mia wanted this composition to be played at her funeral, not because of the mystery it all brought but because apart of its story it is a beautiful song. While she was thinking about how her ;parents told her she wanted to die, she also thought of how she wouldn't be able to complete their wishes, her parents wanted to die together, (which they did) but they also wanted Mia to play in their funeral. Many of the things she wanted to do she wouldn't be able to do if she didn't made it but that is not one of her bigger worries.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vIgX450Rd68 
This is the link to the composition by Mozart, Requiem.

Days in the ICU

Days in the ICU (intensive care unit)

This picture makes emphasis on  the book
 because Mia wants to go home.

Mia still hasn't heard of Teddy, and she still waits for Adam to come and see her. At first she believed that with all this mess her grand parents hadn't called anyone that is not immediate family. But then she sees her friend, Kim, and hope at the same time, she knows that Adam will come soon and that she has to make it. Through time she has figured out that although she cannot pass through doors and windows like she imagined, she can still move from side to side touching things like elevator buttons and making them work - without anyone noticing she was pushing buttons. After roaming around the ICU floor she stayed in her room to see who came, she spied a car on the front parking lot, it was a familiar car. It was one of Adam friend´s car! She was so happy, she wanted to hold him and kiss him so hard! - but, she couldn't, she couldn't even talk to him. Because all roads take you to Rome, the same dilemma arise again and again "If I stay...."

"--people called us the Groovy and the Geek." 91

 

            This part of the book made me connect to the movie by Walt Disney "The Beauty and the Beast." Because in his book Mia and Adam are 2 very different people, one loves classical music, the other is a rock lover, just as Belle and the Beast (whom is actually called Adam just as Mia´s boyfriend). Belle is a “normal girl” even though everyone else calls her weird because she likes to read, and Prince Adam is a rich prince that lives in an enchanted castle with all his servants turned to objects that have eyes, feelings, and know how to sing and cook (!) and somehow they found a way to each other. Anyhow, Mia and Adam also have many differences, there is one thing that connects them both, music, and for all those years it is what’s going to keep them together. As bad as Mia gets Adam wants to be with her, so bad that in a further part of the book he starts to dress up as a janitor, so he could get in to see Mia. This also shows the deep love and strong relationship they’ve built.


"But whatever and whoever he was early this morning, he isn't that person any longer". 119
For me Gayle used this phrase not only to say how the truck driver, although he had no apparent superficial wounds, he would NEVER be who he was in the morning. But also to say how all of humans have those days where you don't know who you are anymore. Like in Alice in Wonderland, Alice says, "I knew who I was this morning, but I've changed a few times since then." (Alice in Wonderland). Everyone changes in their life, either they grow as a better person or not, but we all learn from obstacles life has putted in front of us. Because apparently that is life's job, making our life like a stair case, you cant get to the end of it in one step, you have to go through them all, even if it is jumping.